Hey. I am on the phone now with Rizal. We're trying to solve things out. Now, he put down the phone just like that. If only I could turn back the time..

Yeah, I passed my practicum! *smile*. The smile doesn't come long when I start to think about Zakhil again. It makes my heart bloomed when I tried my luck calling him. He answered with his sleepy voice. How much I miss those days when I woke him up and the memories passed by when I woke in the morning, he was there hugging me.

I'm sorry, to whom it may concern. I know I've hurt you. I didn't mean to. You know what will happen later. It's only me who is confused. Because of how he treated me now, I am in total dilemma. I need him, but you were there for me.. always.

This "always" word really hurt me. Because it reminds me of him.. The beautiful sentences he sang melodiously on my ears, makes my heart skips a beat. I need an answer from him. Please, God, listen to my prayers. Show me who's the one for me. I just need an answer and I will be with him forever. I miss you.. But i hate you for doing this to me.

Hey people. I'm back again. Yes, I am having this major problem. I think I have to honest now with my relationship condition. Zack and me have not been meeting each other since June 12th and he seldom reply my messages and never make the first move to contact me now. I find it unfair. He leaves this relationship hanging. If he doesn't love me anymore, then why keep me?

For your informat5on, he still place himself in a relationship status at Tagged and my pictures are still in his front page. You may think I'm thinking too much, he might be very busy with his career and life, maybe he got problems etc. But is it fair for me..? Think.

Rizal has been there for me since this problem occur. We cannot blame Rizal for this, because Zack doesn't appreciate me anymore. All Zack did now is scolding me and giving me insults. Rizal always give me useful advices and encourage me to be strong. I thought Zack was the pillar of my strength. I repeat, I thought!

I don't know what's in my mind now. All I could think about is my practicum. Tomorrow will be my Supervisor second visit at my childcare centre to observe how I conduct my lesson. OMG! I'm gonna conduct Music & Movements. Easier, right? Hopefully everything will be back to normal. I don't wanna be in dilemma! It scares me.. Really.

Heylo people! Long time didn't hear from me, huh? Got miss me or not? *laugh*. Well, I miss my blog, my Tagged and my FB! Sorry for not updating. I've been really busy since I started working as a Teacher. Things are very different now.

Between me and Zack, we're still together. Even though we seldom meet each other now, I never fail to text him my whereabouts and to know how he is doing for the day. We're still madly in love even though there are so many problems here and there. We just treat it as challenges. Did I tell you about Zack's plan?? Yeah, we're planning to go for further relationship. Understand or not? Pray hard for us, okay? *giggle*.

Well, I'm going to start my Fundamental course next week. I hope I'll pass and get the certificate in Early Childhood. I'm just worried about my attendance. You know, I know lorr! *laugh*. Kk. I wanna check my FB and Tagged now. Will update again maybe in a month time? Hehe. Jangan marah lah..