It's been so long since I update my blog. I've been busy with my career and school course. Yeah, it's exhausting. Feel shagged each time I reached home.

Now, the feelings has fading bit by bit. Maybe due to my experiences and the encouragements that I told to my own self. I've learn a lot from the past. Credits to all the guys that manage to break my heart, leaving me hanging and make me like a fool. Because of you guys, I am still standing tall and I always told myself that I deserve to be happier than this. I may not be strong enough at times, but it is all depends on the confidence in me. It's easy for me to forgive, but forgetting and moving on might be hard. Yeah, I have move on without the last love but not the last crush.

To Ehnal, I respect your decision. Yeah, we just remain friends. There's always a reason why we are not meant to be together. Thank you. I am moving on because of you. I am not angry at all with you. I am prepared for the worst, actually. I've seen your changes since the night we went to pool at Tampines Safra. I can sense something is wrong, something is not right. I don't feel the comfort with you anymore. I don't see myself in your eyes and I can't be myself on that night. I was like a plastic, wearing a mask, trying to ease my heart which keep asking in my mind what's wrong that night and why my heart doesn't beat faster like other night before. I don't hold any grudges at all. Don't worry. I will soon be okay. I just need some time to forget about the feelings.

Mama keep talking about Azmil nowadays. I know Mama still have not over him. My whole family still hoping for that guy to come back to me. I don't! Really. I am just hoping that he will fall for my sister one day. At least my family's hopes will not go waste. *laugh*.