Yesterday was over! I am not going to elaborate what happened yesterday. Such a really bad day, I should say, with Zakhil and my family. Don't get me wrong. Zakhil and my family are both in different stories. That's all I have to say.

Well, today everything seems to be back to normal. It's only that Mama is trying to put things back. What do I care? Wanna say I don't love my mum? Which child do not? I do, but just hard to please her. I end work at 1700hrs and took 168 to Bedok, to meet Sarah. We did our lesson plan quickly and she accompanied me to have my dinner at Bedok Interchange. I had Mee Hongkong. And guess who I saw? Mannto! *laugh*. It's been so long since I met this exboyfriend's cousin. Sarah complimented him as cute. Yeah, he is. But too young for her. *laugh*.

Then I took 69 home. I am busy texting texting Zakhil, planning about tomorrow's planning to have dinner at Razack Restauran @ Changi Road. I can't remember when was the last time I ate there but I know that place since the day I worked at Javanese Authentic Traditional Massage and Spa as a Receptionist.

I can't wait for tomorrow, meeting my BabyChinta. Ayah Rasidi will be fetching us. And yes, I am nervous but I have to put everything aside for our love. I remembered Zakhil message asking me, "Sampai bila Baby nak macam gini, Sayang? Bila lagi Baby taknak kenal-kenal dengan Ayang punya family?"

I was like, "Okay. Now is the time, I guess. I give it a try just for Zakhil. I do this because I love him". I told myself that. And I really mean my words.

It's so surprising after Aqmal told me about his relationship problem. I did not expect this things will happen between them, even though they're still together. Just be strong, brother. I know you can stay long with her. Maybe it's karma. I don't know. I just say.. Karma.

I met BabyChinta under his void-deck after work. He's ready to work and paid my taxi fare and we went to have our dinner at MacDonalds @ Afghanistan. Then we met Abang Khalid and his other Sepak Takraw friends at 305 court. I'm now in their Sepak Takraw family. And I love them! I have already lay my caring heart towards them, especially Abang Khalid and Kak Maya. Then we cabbed home and he off to work.

&&of course I loove my BabyChinta! He's working till Monday morning at 0800hrs. I am missing him badly now. I can't be far away from you, Chinta.

I just wake up. The first thing I did was check my cellphone. I really miss my boyfriend. I am going to watch my friends playing soccer today at Bedok North.

I had so much fun yesterday with the Jamiyah Childcare Centre staffs. They had a pit and I was invited. It was running cats and dogs! And now I am sick. By the way, we played 3 games; Tug-A-War, Water-Bomb and Dog-And-Bone. And my team won! Teacher Jehan was there too with her husband and two kids; Hannah Sofea and Siti Sarah.

I reached home yesterday at about 2300hrs. Mama, Papa and me cabbed home. Too tired to elaborate more. And yeah, I have applied my unpaid leave on the May 07, 2010. Teacher Jehan told me to take the form on Monday. Yeay!! I am going Kuala Lumpur with Zakhil this time!

I woke up at 0615hrs and get ready to work. Nope, I was not late as today I changed shift with Laoshe from 0830hrs to 1800hrs with 30mins overtime. I ate a lot today; Pita with Curry and a bowl of Maggi Curry! I will gain weight back, I tell you! *laugh*.

Today, as usual Gabriel will cry when I am not around him. That spoil baby boy student of mine! Kim Yu is H1N1 positive and poor me have to do spring cleaning alone for my classroom. I sort out all the toys, wash them, clean the tables and chairs, the cubbyholes, the teacher's cupboards, sweep the floor, mop it, clear all the dust, disinfected all the teddy bears and dry the toys. Diyanah went to Teacher Linda's class with the students. Luckily Aunty Fauziah helped me out too.

Zakhil fetched me after work and we went to have our dinner at MacDonalds Admiralty. Then we cabbed back to Tampines as he is already late for work again! I just want my boyfriend to be disciplined. I don't ask for much. I love him and I want him to be like my father. Okay, I wanna check my FB anf Tagged! Take care people.

This is already the 7th times I went to the toilet to poop! Oh my God. I need the toilet in a jiffy once I can feel the hurts on my tummy.

I am now waiting for Zakhil to get ready and send to the clinic near my house. I did went to work earlier but was told to go home.

I am going to take my assignments later from Mama at her workplace and maybe going Bugis to survey my digital camera charger, if my tummy is okay.

I have to go to school, to hand in my assignment which is due today. Then at night, I am following Zakhil to his Takraw training, if I manage. Today he is not working. Okay, I need the toilet again! The 8th time now!!

Guess who came when my lift door opened?? Cik Ripin and his family! Oh how much I miss them! If I am not wrong, the last time I meet them was about 10-13years back. Yeah, I can still remember them. They were my all-time supporters when I karaoke at any events during my childhood time.

Today was my Saturday shift. I worked till 1400hrs and Teacher Rahimah, Teacher Sapiah, Aunty Fauziah as well as me have to rush to our HeadQuarter at Geylang Lorong 12, to have our retreat for Maulidur Rasul. We had Nasi Bryani Dam and yes, I get to meet those ex-convicts uncles again. They still remember my name. I was so touched.

I met Zakhil at Tampines MRT Station after that. We went back to our house as Zakhil told me to change my bag. Then we went out. We talked about lots of things and I ended up crying. I am just too afraid. Things may turn sour if we did not take good care of each other's feelings and hearts. He dried my tears and kissed my forehead when I cried are good enough for me. At least I know that he really care for me.

Seems like almost every day we have been meeting. But not tomorrow as he is working the whole day and I got to follow my family to two wedding places at Woodlands and Yishun. Will update again soon! Take care.

I reached work at about 5mins before 0800hrs. Then I changed all my students to their diapers, before they had their breakfast and off to Singapore Zoological Garden. It was so exhausting. I was entitled to take care of Wan Chee, Jade and Kim Yu. Taking care of 3 children in your hands are never easy without patience. Lucky enough we had our lunch at KFC.

We went to lots of places and I can't be bothered to tell the details. *laugh*. Then we reached back to our centre at about 1530hrs. I showered all of my students and I gave them their milk before they took their nap. As usual Zakhil will fetched me from work. We took cab to Century Square. We went to survey one of the dress that I want so much since last year. Zakhil really want to buy for me as he said it's suits me too but I just can't accept how generous he is.

We then bought Baby Aiman a block toys. We then went to Tampines Mall to have our Sushi and Ben & Jerry's Ice Cream. We have a good talk, still knowing each other deeper as we just into relationship. I learn a lot with him. Thank you, BabyChinta. You are there to make my day go well.

I went to work as usual at 0640hrs and reached workplace at about 0755hrs. I get Zakhil's message when I reached Yishun area, still in bus on the way to work. Zakhil called me when I was havign my short nap with my students, planning where to go for dinner.

He planned to have Pastamania, but we heard that it was not Halal. So we changed the planned in the bus, on the way back to Tampnies. Yes, he fetched me from work as usual. Then Aizzah called me when we wanted to withdraw some money for my tomorrow excursion to Singapore Zoological Garden with my students and other teachers. So we met Aizzah and I called Aqmal to join us as I felt guilty if I never asked him out too. It's been so long since the last time my siblings went to have gathering.

Zakhil treat my siblings and me PizzaHut for our dinner at Tampnies Mall. Then we went to Century Square to get my nosestuds. I lost it again! *laugh*. Then we went home. Zakhil is late for work again because of me. But he never complaint. Even about those money were spent on me and my siblings. I can't remember when was the last time a guy really spent lots of cash just for me, for our love.

Thanks, BabyChinta. I love you so much. Thank you for brightening up my days.

I just came back from Tampines Mall, to have my dinner at Long John Silver with my new love. You must be thinking who, right? Who else I am dating now? Yes, I am in love. No more crush. Ans yes, I am moving on really fast. I don't wanna be stuck with the memories anymore.

This is the second day Zack, Zakhil, fetch me from work. Yesterday, Abang Khalid and him sent me to school and today we spent our quality time together. I miss those time when I felt that I am on top of the world, a guy hold my hand while crossing the road, carrying my bag when he knows I am tired as I just came back from work, money is not an issue at all to him and willing to accept for who I am without changing my attitudes at all.

That's the reason why I love him. That's the type of guy that I need in my life. Thank you for everything you did, BabyChinta. Nerly sayang Zack macam mana Zack sayangkan Nerly. We're planning to go to Kuala Lumpur on 7th May, 2010. Hope this will come true. I am looking forward, because I didn't have enough of shopping when my family and me went there.

I went to the wet market again with Mama. Yeah, I have new hairstyle done. &&all the way since morning, guess who messaged and keep calling me? Yes, my new "friend" Zakhil. It's so sweet of him to reply my forward message. Read this.

Wow! Such a tiring day today. The Jamiyah Association is having Maulidur Rasul at Tampines Stadium. All the Jamiyah Childcare Centre teachers and Global Child Development Centre teachers have to report there at 1330hrs. All of us were in-charge of the Nasi Bryani and the Mineral Water.

I woke up early in the morning at 0800hrs, Mama told me to accompany her to the wet market to cook for all the teachers Nasi Lemak. So, I did and I straight away get myself ready the moment I reached home, because I wanna use the computer. *smile*. Ms Sinah drived Mdm Faridah, Mama and me to Tampines Stadium.

The moment I reached there, all of them looked at Mama and me. Yes, I know what you all were thinking. We got the same features when I wear Tudung. Never expect, right? We had Nasi Lemak for our lunch and did our work. It was a hot day but lucky enough that God loves us and He let the cloud sheltered us all day long.

Zakhil texted me the whole day, trying to get my attention. Me?? Just treating him as a friend. I just get to know him. I don't think of anything else, except friendship. Yeah, of course I will miss being loved and cared but things are different for me now. I have to face the fact that not all we did, people will treasure. Rizal texted me too. He sounded so cheerful, i don't know why. I don't wanna know why too. It's his life, he's still trying to move on. Let him be. He's birthday coming in two days time.

Adam stayed over at my house as tomorrow he'll be having soccer match with Aqmal's school. So yeah, my room are full. I have to sleep at my old room back with Grandma and Aizzah.

It's been so long since I update my blog. I've been busy with my career and school course. Yeah, it's exhausting. Feel shagged each time I reached home.

Now, the feelings has fading bit by bit. Maybe due to my experiences and the encouragements that I told to my own self. I've learn a lot from the past. Credits to all the guys that manage to break my heart, leaving me hanging and make me like a fool. Because of you guys, I am still standing tall and I always told myself that I deserve to be happier than this. I may not be strong enough at times, but it is all depends on the confidence in me. It's easy for me to forgive, but forgetting and moving on might be hard. Yeah, I have move on without the last love but not the last crush.

To Ehnal, I respect your decision. Yeah, we just remain friends. There's always a reason why we are not meant to be together. Thank you. I am moving on because of you. I am not angry at all with you. I am prepared for the worst, actually. I've seen your changes since the night we went to pool at Tampines Safra. I can sense something is wrong, something is not right. I don't feel the comfort with you anymore. I don't see myself in your eyes and I can't be myself on that night. I was like a plastic, wearing a mask, trying to ease my heart which keep asking in my mind what's wrong that night and why my heart doesn't beat faster like other night before. I don't hold any grudges at all. Don't worry. I will soon be okay. I just need some time to forget about the feelings.

Mama keep talking about Azmil nowadays. I know Mama still have not over him. My whole family still hoping for that guy to come back to me. I don't! Really. I am just hoping that he will fall for my sister one day. At least my family's hopes will not go waste. *laugh*.