To AlepSanchez,

10 Years Of Friendship And Still Counting.

Rizal forever with hys shyness.

My StarLight.

My One and Only.

Rizal & Mamat.

iie smoke 2 sticks a day now. ((:

Heylo people!

iie am at PokerFace.

While waiting for the guys to look for gerek pub.

Thanks to Rizal's fingers. -.-

iie have ironed my siblings school uniforms, let Aiman go to sleep and do my course worksheets filing. Aizzah is beside me now, reading my post as well. What happen yesterday? *laugh*.

iie met Rizal and Fami at Queenstown MRT Stn. We then proceed to buy Bombay and Chivas at Serangoon. The Indians are having the Thaipusam Celebration if iie am nort wrong. The whole stretch of the road are filled with the Indian people with piercings. It freaked me out actually. Then we met Adi, AlipSanchi and Mamat at OrchardCentral. BellaDangdut and her fwens went to the ladies. Rizal and me were starving so we thot of having LJS. But we ate Hokkien Prawn Mee and Chicken Rice instead. When we came back to the place whr the guys were, Bella and her fwens were oready sitted. Trust me, it's so kecohrable because the guys and Mira(BellaDangdut's sister) played lotsa games. Euu lose, euu drink that liquor. Then while Rizal was talking with hys bros abt some serious stuffs, Bella, 3 of her fwens and me shared lotsa jokes, riddles and games too. iie cant stop laughing. It was so fun. Bella is 8mth preggy now. Tyme flies really fast, huh?

The girls went home by taking NR7. Left AlipSanchi, Mamat, Adi, Fami, Afik, Raz, Mike, Rizal and me. We dunno whr to go at first as Fami and Afiq were drunk. iie was supposed to be home by 0000hrs. Guess what tyme iie reached home? At 1430hrs, today! *laugh*. We went to PokerFace. It's kinda bored as one of the man there keep singing bored songs. But each tyme when there's no "karaoke sessions", the musics were groovy. iie danced with Rizal. iie cant forget how Rizal danced the Dhoom Machele song. He was so cute!

After pub, Rizal and me have a talk at SMU area. Then we went to have our sleep. We have our BanMian Chicken and Nasi Ayam Panggang at Century Square. Then we chill under my void deck, before iie went home. Rizal apologised Daddy one on one outside the house. iie just find it so gentleman and humble of hym. iie love hym. No deny.

Rizal, Nerly sowie abt the days when euu were at camp. We spent the whole week arguing abt small things. iie love euu, iie swear. Dun throw away the tissue paper that iie wrote at PokerFace. Thanks for the first sacrifise that euu did today. iie really appreciate it.

Okay, can iie say iie hate my own boyfriend?
iie feel so suck now.
iie have oready get ready to go out when iie called Rizal.
iie asked hym whr he was. Still at hospital with Fahmi.
And guess wat? He want me to wait for hym at Jurong while he still waiting for Fahmi to end the X-Ray and dunno what time will it end.
The thing is my prepaid is totally $00.00 and how to know my whrabts and hys whrabts??
At last, he told me nort to tag along.
FCUK UP, RYTE??!

When iie dun wanna go, he called me to get ready.
When iie am abt to get out of the hse, he told me no need to come along.
iie am paranoid now.

He just text saying, "U wait at home dulu. i suru kua then u kua.. I'm sori, pe yg i janji pat u, i tunaikn. dun cry k? asap k.."
iie know he felt guitly. Let hym be!
He dun wanna treat me like hys girlfriend, then fine.
iie dun care anymore.

Okay, iie am in the clock.
iie dunno whether to go anort.
HELP ME!
If iie go, iie bet boyfie will laugh at me.
If iie dun go, boyfie's fwens will think that iie am a troublemaker.
BellaDangdut will tag along too.
iie wanna meet her.
It's been so long iie last saw her.
It was before the got pregnant and married to AlipSanchi.

Guess iie am going.
But wat tyme to get ready?
iie am still nort sure.
iie dun wanna call boyfie.
Let hym wait for me.

now iie am keeping silent.
iie am nort gonna give in this tyme.
even thou iie have caught hym twice for dishonesty & forgiven hym, dun think the third one iie will forgive easily.
euu keep taking advantage each time iie give euu the chance.
your sentences are all jumbled up.
there's a Malay saying, "Menegak benang yang basah".
enuff of yesterday's arguments, today euu make me have a heartpain again.

P L E A S E , B O Y F I E .
iie am afraid iie cant be that strong to overcome all the shits dat euu did.
Spare a thot for me.

This was taken on Raya 2008.

My Tarian girls on the year 2006.

This is soo HISTORY!

Spot me??

This is the Yakuza Moon book that iie have been wanting to read and know about.

Good morning! (:

iie was up at 0600hrs to wake boyfie up. But Aiman was up too. iie have been trying to get hym back to slp. He's asleep now. *sigh*. It was "At last" to me! Haha. Boyfie just called 14mins ago, saying that he wanna fall in. Okay, iie am done abt this mawnink.

Yesterday iie met boyfie at Jurong East MRT Stn at abt 1200hrs after he went to NUH to take MC. iie am so worried abt hym. iie noe it's my fault.. iie am so, so sowie. iie have been a troublemaker all this while. *sigh*. iie just feel so guilty. Sowie again, baby.

We had a quarrel that lead me to go home without hym knowing. iie cant take hys rough jokes. It hurts me, actually. He promised, but he was the one doing it again and again. iie noe iie am a bit rough physically with my punches, pinches, slappings on ur body but iie will nort do that if he dun provoke. It's nort that iie dun gv hym the warnink. He just hack care with what iie said. So ended up, we have to give and take. We had lunch at hym hse after Mama left for work at abt 1500hrs. We watched TV and hys sister was awake by then. We then went to Jurong Library, to try borrowing Yakuza Moon story using boyfie's 11B. *laugh*. We noe it's impossible but iie "die-die" wanna try.

My NRIC can't be used as iie still haven't settle my fines. We can't find the book even thou we have oready searched on the computer and copied down the serial number. So we looked for other book. iie saw this Summer Love book and iie remembered iie borrowed it at Tampines Library. iie really enjoy that book. It's so thick yet very easy to understd. Nort so many big words. But then still iie can't loan the book. *sigh*.

We then went to IMM to have Sushi. That's our dinner. NanaShawty and Ray met us there. And guess who we saw?? BOY FROM SAPTO! Nort funny, okay??! Haha. It's sucha small world that Rizal know hym too. And it's so lucky that iie dun go relationship with hym because he's a father of 3 children!!

O M G .
Really iie can't believe it!

And guess who we saw next??
Wanie Kecik and Murai! *laugh*.
She was from work at Best Denki IMM and went to have dinner with Murai before they went home. iie updated Wanie abt my new number. And worst, Rizal's dad, lil'bro and lil'sister were there too! We shifted our sitting place without Wanie. *laugh*.

Boyfie sent me up to the MRT Stn and iie reached home nearly 2200hrs. iie talked with Aishah while waiting for the lift. Boyfie called me up when he was on hys way back to camp. iie settled my wardrobe! So damn messy and now evewi clothe, jeans and skirts are in place. Thank GOD! &&thanks to Baby Aiman for giving me the springcleaning! (:

Mawnink people!

iie slept at abt 0300hrs, iie think, and now iie am awake. iie dunno why iie cant slp well. iie am wondering if Boyfie is awake now. Gonna phone hym up! Tc, girls. &&guess what?! iie am skooling today!

Hey guys!

iie am back. Just had my dinner. Cik Ani, MakBusu, Sarah & Matpah are here. Listening to Love Story by Taylor Swift makes me better now. iie went to Tamp Library to borrow the Yakuza Moon Book but iie cnt coz iie got fines of $20.14. *pfft*.

Heylo people!

iie just wake up. And the first thing iie did was wash my face and phoned my school. iie told them that iie have changed my hp number and asked what to bring along tmr for my first class. iie then phoned boyfie, talking in sarcastic way.

iie refresh back what happened ytd aft 0000hrs. We were waiting for Hafiz to return to camp, as we usually borrowed hys hp to communicate with each other. Hafiz's hp activates free incoming calls, but boyfie dun have any. As euu guys rmb too that Rizal's prepaid is low. So yeah, while waiting, iie called Rizal's hp first. He promised me that he's bringing me along to Fahmi's birthday celebration either at SupperClub or Rebel. But ytd was so heartaching and sounds different as if he forgot that he have oready planned with me.

He said, "Baby, Saturday iie kua dgn my fwens tau, celebrate Fahmi nya birthday."

And iie was like.. iie dunno how to explain the feelins. But yeah, iie was so hurt. When he noes iie sounded different after he told me that, he tried to make it ryte.

He said again, "Kk klau euu nk ikut, euu cari duit masuk club. Atau iie ikot Fahmy g minum, but tk ikut dia g club. iie spend tyme dgn euu. How?"

iie felt like he's "using" me. iie understd that actually Saturday is meant for hys fwens. But now he's attached, how can he put me aside? Dats nort all. iie cant slp the whole nyte. He phoned my hse after 0400hrs. iie dunno why iie cant slp. It's like sumtink nort ryte is happening. Suddenly, iie got the feelings to asked Boyfie abt Shiela, hys ex, to know if she did text hym. iie am nort surprise if he said yes but iie am so damn bloody hurt when he told me that he replied!

It takes to hands to clap. iie dun find it a must to replied even thou they're "fwens" now. But imagine urself in my shoe, people. What will girls do?? iie cant take it. iie am so disappointed. Till now, iie talked with Boyfie in sarcastic ways. He knows that iie purposely do this. iie want hym to feel what iie feel. iie changed my hp num, iie tried to ignore the urge of calling other guys, iie stop going out without his permission, iie forever at home taking care of Aiman and iie even ignore my fwens when iie saw them at Tamp Mall.

iie treat hym like iie got no other people in the world. But he dun. For hym, he got his fwens around that he cared abt them.

iie am paranoid now. TC.

Boohoo~!

Okay, iie am bored. iie woke up at 1500hrs and iie phoned boyfie. Guess what? He's mad at me till now bcoz iie woke up late and didn't go to work. iie spent the whole day at home, watching tv and taking care of Baby Aiman.

Oh ya. iie have to be honest. iie did Tagged and Friendster back.
This is my email;
nerly_erviona@hotmail.com

Do add me, people.
Rizal dunno abt this.
But iie noe, one day he'll find out.
iie am prepared.

Nerly Erviona & Rizal Salleh

Each time iie need euu, euu were there.

iie count euu on.

the sweetest kiss iie could ask for.

iie need hym, like a child needs a blanket.

iie love you, Rizal Salleh.

HEYLO PEOPLE!

Hey. iie woke up today at 1400hrs. iie spent the whole 58hrs with boyfie since on Friday night. iie fetched Rizal at Jurong East MRT Stn then we went to Tamp straight. iie bought some food for dinner and we went to Bedok Reservoir. We spent the whole nyte till 0600hrs and iie went home to change.

After bathing, iie get ready and went to Pandan with boyfie. iie met hys mum, hys sisters and brother. Mama gave me food to eat for breakfast with boyfie. Then iie watched TV till abt 1200hrs. Boyfie and me then went to West Coast Park and spent tyme there. Abt 1500hrs, we went to Yew Tee. We met Fahmi, Talai and Fifi. Fifi is Rizal's cousin. She and Talai are married and they got 3 children. Fifi is now 5mths pregnant. She's just 18yrs old, coming 19yrs old this yr. Then abt 2100hrs we went to hys grandma's hse. After abt an hr, we went home to my hse.

Rizal spent the whole nyte at my hse. He went home at abt 0500hrs this mawnink. He woke up at abt 1500hrs. iie just call hym up and he's with hys Pandan fwens, under hys void deck.

O M G .
iie miss my boyfriend!

We made this promise that we can only spent tyme the whole nyte once a month. Nort like owaz we used to be. Financial matter, iie have to handle. God! Big responsibility he gave me to hold. My credit's $0 and boyfie's credit's vewi low too. iie am thinking, how are we gonna contact with each other. Oh shit! Miracle come to me!

Yeah, iie am now in the Tampines Library, updating my blog while waiting for Boboy to arrive. He's from his soccer training in sch. iie guess Rizal has deleted my Tagged, Facebook and MSN account. iie tried to log in 3times but still the access denied. iie just thot of browsing it before iie delete. iie wanna update my Nursing, Secondary, Primary sch fwens(strictly girls only) that they can ring me up as iie am no longer active at all.

iie met Rizal for the 2nd tyme ytd at Jurong Point, after the 1st tyme miting at Siloso Beach Party during CountDown 2010. Now iie can make a clearer picture how he looks like. iie remembered during countdown, iie was so tipsy that iie have forgotten how he looks like. All iie remembered he wore a specs. Hahaha. Well, iie had KFC for my late dinner with hym at a park just opposite Jurong Point. We talked, we laughed alot. iie criously never regret miting hym even thot it's too far for me. But iie guess tolerating with ur boyfie is a good thing as we nid to sacrifice things in a relationship to aim for happiness.

iie reached home at abt 2345hrs when Didi sms-ed me to mit hym. He said he got sumtink to talked abt. He reached at abt 0140hrs and he asked me if iie ever know other cutting groups besides SCS & Phantom. Supposed iie know what he means. But iie act as if iie dunno anitink. He might know abt my pasts. Even thou he's just a cousin to me, but HELL NO iie am gonna tell hym abt me and my life. But iie cant afford to lie my boyfie. Sooner or later, he might know the truth too. So yeah. iie told hym the true story.

It turned out rili ugly, people. He thot that iie am using hym, iie betrayed our love and etc. But in the name of ALLAH, iie never have the intension to lie. iie am just afraid to lose hym. iie love hym so much that iie dun want hym to feel my pain. iie had enuff of things in my mind, that iie dun want hym to suffer too. Rizal is vewi, vewi innocent. He dun deserve to hv me, actually. iie believes as a girlfie, it's my responsibility to make my boyfie happy. Now it's hard for hym to trust me. iie regret wat had happen. At tymes, iie asked myself, "Do iie deserve to have a happy ending?" But iie dun have the answer. iie know Rizal is trying hys vewi best to trust me. That's the reason why iie delete all my accounts and guess wat?

iie am going to change my number AGAIN!

Okay, okay. Dun sigh, okay?

iie know iie have been changing number for more than 4times since last yr. But this yr iie have not, ryte? Hahaha.

So, yeah. Boboy has arrived. iie am giving hym this chance to let hym use the computer. Take care, my fwens. iie love euu!