Heylo people. iie am sowie for a long time nort posting my blog. iie am so busy with my life. iie am nort werking anymore due to a reason. iie cant tell euu the reason. Only trusted ppl iie tell them.

Well, as euu people noe that iie am nort with Azri anymore, iie am now in a rs with Robot TJR aka Rahmat. iie hope he's like Azri Unk old attitude. He may be a Matrep, but he noes how to control hymself & take gd care of hys rs. iie am so happy to be with hym.

iie can post much now. GTG, people. iie am miting hubbyBONCHET, nanaCINE & her boyfie tmr at Bugis. We're going sheesha. Post again! Tc. (:

Mawnink, people. iie just woke up. Apparently, between Azri & me are over. iie just dun understand why we have to patch up. iie rmb iie am the type of girl who doesn't patch with a guy after breaking up. But why did iie patch up with hym?? *no answer*.

iie worked at BHG ytd. It was so BORING! No one's guiding me. iie only got a fwen there named Yunis. She's a chinese Malaysian girl. iie dunno her age, nor whr she stay or school at. Since no one doing rounding all, iie took the advantage by leaving work early at 2030hrs! Haha. iie suppose to end work at 2200hrs. Furqan fetched me at work. Then he sent me to Ad's place. iie had my dinner there. After months of nort eating chocolate, iie bought myself a chocolate at 7-11! Nice. (:

Well, ntg much happen. iie am just too bored. iie hate being like this because of love. iie dunno why the feelings of love for hym still lingers around me. Haish.

Ohh yar! Shahrul called me ytd nyte too. He told me that hys anoder ex-gf called, asking for patch up. But he reject coz he lied to the girl that he's attached. He wants me back. Sowie, Shahrul. Once heart broken, consider no turning back. (:

Heylo people. Well, iie just tdokan Baby Aiman. iie woke up at 1100hrs today, by Zal's msges. iie can hear my tummy dancing. Haha. So the lapar!!

I worked at Vivo on midshift ytd. iie get to mit Boi again. He worked at 4pm. iie went for my lunch at Banquet with hym. iie caught a lovebite on hys neck! Haha. Heartbreaker kid. Nvm. iie just keep it inside me. Then iie end work at 2045hrs, to get ready for Double-O. Furqan fetching me at 2100hrs SHARP! Oohhkkaaayyy~!

iie get Boi's "last" msg. Here it goes.
"Mmg ku ngah rindu kw nie skg.. hmm tkpelah. niway i da kat traffiq light gg to bustop. tkperlah u.. kte stop mxg ke pape arh.. i tkot nnt i pcet u, i mken rindu u.. hmm.. k lah bye cyg.. lub u soo much! gg to miss u soo much.. =( niway i just cnt believe dat im crying now.. haha! tk senonoh.. jln sorg2 bey nangis.. matrep kental.. k dats all abt.. thnks.. tata. have fun.. =)"

iie didnt manage to reply. iie was speechless. We did plan nort to contact each other, but iie didnt expect hym to express his feelings. iie didnt noe he got feelings for me. WEIRD! -.-

Guess who's going to DBL-O?? A-N-O-H! Haha. Lela's ex-boyfie, my MSN fwen! Small werld, it's Furqan's outside fwen. We had fun dancing & having great tyme! iie make fwens with this girl named Baby. She lives at CCK, 20. iie dunno if she's werking anort. The DBL-O photograper took our pix together. Dats the reason why we both make fwens. We did exchange num too.

Then iie saw Fauzi, the security guard at Raffles City. We exchange num too. Long tyme nvr see hym. Then it's 0300hrs! Tyme to go home. Before iie went home, Furqan & me went for our supper at Al-Kader near my hse. iie had Prata Telur, he had Plain Prata & Prata Telur. We both had Teh for our drinks.

iie reached home at 0445hrs. iie try my luck to noe if Zal's slping anort. NO! He's waiting for me. Haiyoyo. Anoder heartbreaker kid! Haha. Guess wat when iie checked my cellphone?? 12msges and 3 missed calls! Msges from Azri Unk, Zal & Boi. all asking whr am iie, am iie okay & wanna have a good sms with me. Sowie, guys, iie didnt bring along my cellphone to club. iie left it at Furqan's bike-box. Okay lah. iie wanna check my fwensta & tagged now! Tc people.

Sometimes at night,
When I look to the sky,
I start thinking of you,
And then ask myself "why?"

"Why do I love you?"
I think and smile,
Because I know,
The list could run on for mile.

The whisper of your voice,
The warmth of your touch,
So many little things,
Make me love you so much.

The way you support me,
Even my silly notions,
The way that you care,
And show such devotion.

The way that your kiss,
Fills me with desire,
And how you hold me,
With the warmth of a fire.

The way your eyes shine,
When you look at me,
Lost with you forever,
Is where i want to be.

The way that I feel,
When you are by my side,
A sense of completion,
And overflowing pride.

The dreams that I dream,
That all involve you,
The possibilities that I see,
The things that we can do.

How you finish the puzzle,
That lies inside my heart,
How deep in my soul,
You are a very important part.

I could go on for days,
Telling of what I feel,
But all you really must know is...
My love for you is real.

Mawnink people! iie woke up at 0630hrs earlier to change my pad, susukan baby Aiman, tukarkn diapers & now iie am posting my blog. No one's on my MSN. Thanks goodness! If nort, iie lazy to post my blog. Haha. iie am having my 3nd day menses. Oh man! C R A M M E D!

Well, ytd iie went to work with Boi. We met at Tamp Mrt Stn at 1145hrs. We manage to reached work at 1250. Fuhh~! Lucille got lotsa censore tags for me, so iie cn continue doing my stocks. iie collect my price tags all. Ice was working ytd. So iie told wateva happened the day before. Herself cant accept what that Anne said to me. She think she's 31, she can makan the all the girls there?? Ohh sowie! Nort me. Nort even Ice or Suzy. If ever she hurt my gals' feelings, iie will make sure iie am the one taking the revenge! iie will nort stay silent. She need a lesson to be learnt, people. Only the Vivo Tangs people noe whats Anne's attitude. The black sheep at Vivo Tangs. Haha.

iie went to dinner at 1700hrs with Boi. We had Mcdonalds. iie am saving up my penny, so iie only had McChicken & Apple Pie. Then we went smoke at the Batam Jetty again. iie continued doing my stocks again till it was 2120pm. iie exceed my working schedule, coz iie got lotsa things to do. iie am all alone. iie dun mind coz iie noe iie am the Ms Independent people owaz think abt.

iie went home with Boi. Boi waited for me at the pantry. Then we took 65 again. iie reached home at 2300hrs & iie get to watch Terlanjur Cinta again! Hehe. iie went to bed at 0230 after having a bad cry, settling probs with Azri Unk. We have patch up. Yeah, we continue our journey back together.

To my Azri, iie forgive euu for all ur wrongdoings, even thou it's hard to forget all things that happened. iie am sowie too for wat iie did, just to revenge, iie shouted at euu otf, iie ill-treated euu, iie abandoned euu when we stop the rs. iie just want tyme to be with myself that tyme. iie owaz thot iie "succeed" to forget euu each tyme iie am busy with my work. But deep down my heart, iie keep calling your name. iie feel at ease each tyme iie do it. iie am still loving euu, even thou we have to go so much of obstacles in the rs. Give and take, honesty, commitment, TRUST and sacrificing play importang roles in ALL relationship. So iie hope euu are patience enuff to endure the journey with me again. iie love euu.. So much, Sayang. &&iie mish eating Ban Mian! ((:

Heylo people. Ytd iie reached work at 1259hrs! Tankiu GOD, iie was early of a min. Haha. iie quickly let Lucille sign staff attendance book under Split and iie did my unfinished stocks. iie got 3 boxes left. Pei Wen must not been doing the stocks the day before coz iie saw ntg's different. Poor me have to do it alone.

As Ice told me that on Sunday she will nort be working, a new part time Dickies brand named Suzy will be replacing her. Suzy.. How's her characters? Ohh she's crazy! Fun to be with. Criously! Haha. iie enjoyed making fwens with her. iie get to mit Paing again after 2-3 wks of nort werking together. She confessed that she missed me so much. iie gave her a warm hug. iie missed her too. Then iie got another new fwen named Haziq, but he told me to call hym Boi instead. Mmg msh boi pn! He's just 17 yrs old, skooling at St Andrews, working part-time on the Men's Undies. Haha. Tk cool kn? But Boi really looks like he's 20/21 yrs old. Crious. iie nvr bodek! Haha.

iie went to lunch with Suzy & Boi. iie had chinese Nasi Lemak, Suzy had her Lontong and Boi had McSpicy upsized meal. We then went to smoke near to the Batam Jetty. iie could see Sentosa Monorail, Cable Cars, ferries and more! Ohh man. How iie wish to aboard cable car! iie really wanna try the luge too at Sentosa!! iie am craving for it.

iie went home with Boi, as he's staying at Bedok Reservoir. We took 65. Suzy went home by bus too, but she took 963 as she's staying at B.Batok. iie laughed all along the journey. Boi is sucha funny guy. Guess wat?! He's a MATREP! He got full tattoo on his left arm. OMG! iie asked how he go to skool, he said he wear handsock. Okay. iie stop here okay? Tc people.

&&Adek Furqan's fwen is reading this blog too? Wahh! SOOO KPO, HUH?! Haha. Enjoy reading, izzit? Well, thanks for reading my previous post. (:

The day we went shopping for Baby Aiman. Feat Shahrul Nizam. ((:

Heylo people. iie woke up at 1000hrs today to update my blog again. iie am werking today at Vivo Tangs @ 1300hrs.
Ytd Haikal sent me to work by hys bike. iie woke up late. It's gd to get hys early mawnink msg. iie reached work exact at 1200hrs! Luckily it's Diamond werking mawnink. Slash werking in the afternoon shift. iie was so hungry by then! Najel texted me up if iie wanna have lunch with hym at 1300hrs. But iie felt unfair as iie just arrive and iie wanna have an early lunch, while Diamond came at 1000hrs still have nort eaten! So iie texted Najel back, saying that iie cant accompany hym as iie am going lunch at 15oohrs. iie had Chinese Nasi Lemak for only $2, iie bought Wadeh $1 and my fav green tea drink at Cheers for $1.65. Fyi moii daily allowance is only $6. So euu guys imagine how tough iie am facing with cash!

Izwan fetched me from work at 2000hrs. We went to ECP, after a long tyme of nort miting. iie mish Izwan so much!! He even tell me this, "Baby, aku tgk ko mcm lain jek.. Ko da kurus lah! Asl nie?? Stress keje ke stress jantan? *laugh*." Babi pehh jantan! Dia tk tau iie am so stress with work and my own personal probs. Haish. Nvm. Think positive. This will end really soon.

iie reached home at abt 2245hrs and iie get to watch Terlanjur Cinta! Hehe. Shahrul called me up that nyte. Nadhirah & hym have brkup. Me and hym?? Ohh noo!! iie dunno wat to say. Hurt after hurt, now iie dun wanna get involve in love. Too much of hearing sweet-talks, makes me wanna run away from evewitink. Felix went to club again! Tk abis2 lahh tu apek. Haha. iie think iie end here now. Tc people! ((:

P.S.; Adek Furqan, suka baca blog Kakak Nana?? Haha. Ko mmg Adek Bbbbooooodddeeeekkkk lah! Haha.

Heylo people. Okay, it's 7 plus in the mawnink, and iie have wake up to update my blog, check my fwensta, tagged & facebook.

Ytd Shahrul met me at Tamp MRT Stn at abt 1000hrs. He sent me to work at Vivo. iie was having mid-shift, from 1300hrs to 2100hrs. iie punched my card at 1200hrs, and went to have my McWings Meal lunch at MacDonalds HarbourFront with Shahrul. He talked abt lotsa things. Abt Nadhirah, the Robinson Staffs & hys Mum. All iie do was crying. He did cry too on my shoulder. iie didnt expect these things to happen. iie am sowie, people. iie cant post wats happening actually. It's confidential, just btwn Shahrul & me. Hafiz Apek phoned me up when iie was smoking. Here goes the conversation.

The line was cut. iie was like, "WTFH?!!" But dats the truth. He just come and go when he feels like doing it. Shahrul sent me to my workplcae staff entrance and off to CentrePoint. iie dun wanna trouble hym, and make things so complicated for hym. But he's too stubborn! iie am just afraid hys mum will think iie am the one who forced hym to spend tyme with me and make hym so lazy now to go to work. iie got lotsa things to do when iie arrived my work ground. There were 5 cartons of promotion stocks. So, wat iie have to do are staple the price tags, pin the censore tags on the side of the clothes and fold it neatly according to sizes. It might sound easy, but when euu are doing it alone, euu feel like the work has no end. But iie enjoy doing it, as the time flies rili fast. It was 1700hrs when Ice ajak me go dinner. But iie just had a simple one at the staff pantry, as iie got no penny. Ice went to have dinner with her mum at Banquet. iie continued my work when Ice came back frm her dinner. We talked & laugh while doing our things.

It was so fun to have Ice arnd. iie feel so warm with her company. She's sucha a goodfwen, iie shud say. Suddenly Furqan crossed my mind. iie phoned hym up, as iie noe he's waiting for my msg or kol to ask hym out. iie try my luck. And guess wat?! He fetched me frm work.

We went to have supper at Arab St. iie had Mee Goreng & Teh Tarik. He only get hymself the same drink as mine. We talked things out abt most things. Then Daddy phoned me up, asking whr was iie. After smoking, he sent me home straight. iie managed to watch my fav Indon story; Terlanjur Cinta for 30mins only. But it worth! Hehe. Shahrul called me up late that night. We didnt talk much, as hys mum kept telling hym to go to sleep. But he was nort sleepy, he told me. iie cnt force hym to sleep too. But iie did end the conversation that iie was the one who's sleepy. iie gave hym that excuse, for hym to put down the phone. All iie have to do now, when it comes to Shahrul, is give in. iie remember my Dad owaz say, "Mengalah tk berertinya kalah. Mengalah itu menjernihkn keadaan yg kusut."

Dad, euu are sucha a good motivater in my life. Ur words really touch my heart owaz. iie love euu, Daddy.

Heylo people. Wow. It's becoming seldom now iie post my online diary. Time flies rili fast, huh? Azri Unk has also leave my heart about a week or two ago. iie cant remember. It was so long ago. iie am busy working, till iie lost track of tyme.

iie got ntg to talk about actually. But iie will try. Hmm.

Currently iie am contacting with Shahrul Nizam. A 16-year-old guy who's nort skooling anymore since 13-years-old, working as a ISS Cleaner at Robinson CentrePoint and siblings of 11(he's the third last). If euu ask me if iie got a crush on hym and hys characters, honestly iie answer, "YES". Why? Coz he's so independent and thoughtful. iie dun mind he work as wat currently. Bcoz for me as long as he lives a honest money-earning, iie am so grateful. He quit school as he's having family financial prob, and he work so hard to earn money for hys lil'bro & lil'sista last school fees. Nort forgotting, there's some grudges from Kak Noreen since Shahrul Nizam close with me. iie dunno why. iie dun wanna be the reason why this two god-bro-and-sista nvr befriend each other anymore. iie dunno wanna be the reason why at all! But iie did asked Kak Noreen to clear her thoughts, but she replied dat she dun wanna be involved in other people's relationship. But why she got grudges?? She's jealous? iie dun think so. She's married with a 4-years-old son! Haish. Well, iie met Shahrul Nizam's mum since the 2nd day iie noe hym deeper. iie called her Cik Mun, even thou Shahrul Nizam told me to call her, "Mak". It's difficult for me, as it's so hard for me to love a person.

iie think iie had enuff of talking about Shahrul Nizam. Now wat? iie am out of idea. iie will catch up more post in future, okay? &&iie am no more contacting with Furqan & Wan Rebel. Enuf is enuf. TC, people. (:

Boyfie, listen to this song. Especially for euu. Understand the lyrics too.

Saat aku tertawa
Diatas semua
Saat aku menangisi
Kesedihanku
Aku... ingin engkau selalu ada
Aku... ingin engkau aku kenang

Reff :
Selama aku
Masih bisa bernafas
Masih sanggup berjalan ku kan slalu memujamu
Meski ku tak tahu lagi
Engkau ada dimana
Dengarkan aku... Ku merindukanmu

Saat aku mencoba merubah sgalanya
Saat aku meratapi kekalahanku
Aku... ingin engkau selalu ada
Aku... ingin engkau aku kenang

* back to Reff [2x]

Dengarkan aku....
Kumerindukanmu....

Heylo people. It's been so long now since iie last post my online diary. Well, today is my 2nd day off. iie am going to Syed Alwi Rd later to have my casting with Mr Bahar. Furqan will be sending me there. Then iie thot of miting Kak Noreen, Kak Fazlina, Mak Niah & Shahrul Nizam. *heart melting*.

Well, ytd iie was having my fullshift(10am to 10pm) at CentrePoint Somerset Robinson. Mak Niah was having her mawnink shift and Kak Faz came in the afternoon. Kak Noreen didnt werk, she's having her off day. iie went to have my lunch at MacDonalds with Azman(Az). iie thot of taking urgent leave but tk jdi. As it was my last day at Robinson CentrePoint. iie wanna spend my day there! iie noe iie am gonna mish those people. Boyfie wanna mit me on moii 2nd brk, but iie told hym to go home.

iie dunno why nowadays iie felt so different. It's nort me at all. Am iie the one changing in the relationship, or he's the one too demanding? iie admit we got no precious tyme together anymore since iie am werking fulltime retail. Even hols and wkends iie have to work. iie am sowie if euu feel neglected. iie cant deny dat iie have this feeling of different started when euu said euu dun trust me. Euu rmb when the last tyme we fought when iie was werking at CentrePoint, boyfie? Dats when all change the way it is suppose to be.

Well, after werk ytd iie met Shahrul Nizam at the street level. We smoked and talked abt lotsa things. He then sent me to the Somerset MRT Stn when iie wanna go home. My hp batt was flat by then! Ohh man. iie met Aiyul under my void deck. We went to met Cherry under her void deck. Aiyul bought perfumes frm Cherry. Huda & Aiyul nort together anymore. But im sure they'll patch one day. How can they leave their 2yrs a mth relationship just like dat? IMPOSSIBLE. iie reached home ytd at 0345hrs. Then im off to bed. Too tired.

Heylo people. iie just got back from work. It's so tiring. But iie enjoy working at Vivo Tangs. The staffs there are so fwenly & outgoing. iie met few new fwens like Ice(Aisha frm Dickies), Paing(a Myanmar girl frm Ripple), Kak Nur & Josephine. They're full of fun topic to share with me even thou it was my first day working there! Haha.

Actually it's my bad day today. iie suppose to mit Felix again at 2100hrs. He ajak me to St James but boyfie dun allow. We have a fyte now. Haish. iie cancelled to go there. Then Emmy called. He told me that mayb he's fetching me. He got a bad news to tell me. But he dun wanna tell. He told me to check newpaper on page 8 instead. He told me to be strong. iie was waiting to noe. Now iie noe.

"Emmy, if euu are reading, euu noe how much iie treasure our fwenship. Even thou euu confessed that euu love me so much, euu noe iie got a guy. iie only treat euu as my fwen. iie am sowie. iie did cried when iie read abt euu. It's sucha heartpain. iie didnt expect all the money euu used to spent on me are all duit haram. iie just regret. iie will owaz remember euu.. iie promise."

Okay. Haish. iie am crying again. GOD! iie got no mood to post now. Get to this post back again in a few days. iie am busy werking. Tmr mayb taking MC. iie got no mood to work tmr.